" Without beginning or end, the ring stretches into the infinite. " - Ace Combat Zero, The Belkan War.


Well, for once..I have nothing to talk about. Nothing. Writers block maybe? Nah. Oh! Now that I think about it...


Xenogears is quite possibly the best non Final Fantasy RPG that Square Enix [ SquareSoft  at the time ] has ever made. Mind you, I was only 13 when I played it, and I've been completely captivated by the story's underlying themes of Freudism and Jungism, not to mention the Religious undertones. It has made me a wiser and better person in general for playing. Normally these days, everyone's looking for a Final Fantasy which is overrated and overstylized for the inherent lack of substance. Now, every Square fanboy/girl is probably gonna curse me out when I say this.  Xenogears is better than Final Fantasy 7, flat out. Sure FF7 delves something into Psychology, but it's made simplified for the idiots who cannot understand the story by throwing in an overstylized DBZ fight scene [ See FFVII: AC ] here and there. The characters lack depth sadly, but no one will ever admit that because it's the first RPG they have ever played. Posers of the gaming world unite under the banner of ShinRa, apparently. Meanwhile, Xenogears takes on some serious religious and psychological issues that are rampant in todays world, and tackles them well. Take Fei for instance..he plays the Ego. He is trying to keep his Id in check. [ pardon the pun, if you don't get it then you are irrelevant to this posting. ] Grahf, would take upon the role of SuperEgo, which feeds into Id, causing the ego [ Fei ] to lose control, succumbing to his Id side, and the game is not just focused on that. Take feelings of worthlessness, such as Ramsus. He was created by Krelian to be the ideal member of the so called " Perfect Society " with powers equal to their leader, Emperor Cain. [ another religious mention of Cain and Abel, with Abel being " Fei " which would denote a brotherly relationship. However, that is not mentioned in the game. ] However, a revelation on how he wasn't chosen to become the " Contact " had branded him trash, a reject, etc. To kill Fei, was now the very meaning of his existance, and he even failed at that. In the end, he had come to grips to what he had become, and chose to challenge Fei one more time after the iconoclastic conflict for supremacy. Also, it delves into heavily into religion. Take the Ethos for example. They are the prime example of catholicism. They offer salvation to those who are down-trodden, lost faith, and destitute. However, they have their own agenda. They are agents of Solaris, which is almost depicted as Heaven, as it is high in the sky, out of sight to the world. The Ethos are the complete opposite of The Nisan sect, which I would assume to be the " idealist " christianity. It's just a great game, hands down.

Now, I have been confronted about who I am, and what I choose to do and not to do. The internet feeling is such a fragile thing, so whatever I do is on my own volition. If you get butthurt about what I do or say, that's just tough. Considering the person in I am refferring to is guilty of the same thing. Wouldn't that be a hypocrite in my...or anyone's book?  Now, I entered a chat, not to start trouble..and, the drama queen she is, decides to get all butthurt. There's an old saying...don't dish it out if you can't take it. Now Junne...grow up. I'm not afraid to mention names around here. I do what I do, when I feel like it, and If I don't like whats going on with any of the people I consider a friend, I'm gonna take things into my own hands. Self-righteous as it may be, I only speak the truth as seen through my own eyes. Now if everyone wants to play buddy buddy after a while of mudslinging, that's fine. Apparently, I never got that memo. Now, onto the whole two-faced thing..James knows it best. The only person I am loyal to is myself. You are just the same as me, no matter what spin you put on it. I've accepted who I am..but you won't, and probably never will. I can't change that, nor will I try. And that is all that I will say on the subject. Whether you read this or not, I really don't care. I don't like to waste time on those not really worthy enough to actually try to come to some form of closure with. Cheers.



Auld lang syne...Heather on friday after work, and then probably there all weekend in PA. I have some inkwork to get. =)